credits:
David Ben-Chetrit - Guitars
Greg Irvin - Guitars
Mike Calvaresi - Voices
Blake Hedding - Drums
Kyle Carpeter - Bass
Produced by Charvaka, Sean McGuire and Derek Hawthorn 2007 - 2008
Lyrics and cover art by Mike Calvaresi
all rights reserved 2008 ©
track list:
Opening Oceans
Time Inside Size (Size Inside Time)
False Box Sentence
Final Denial
Because I will be Dying…
Insider
Grow
Parkus and Travelin’ Jack
The Podium
Verse to Verse
Closing Oceans
charvaka
Time Inside Size (Size Inside Time)
time is so slow
space is so small
light moves so fast
size is so vast
swirling through eons trapped in the infinite
spinning into time out of mind all within one second
life is so strong
time draws on
air is so thick like an ocean
this chaos is growing swallowing logic and showing we don't know where we're going unsure blind and hoping
time goes so fast
space is so large
life goes so fast
size is so vast
memory is all we have
we are so large
galaxies are so small
molecules are so large space is so small
hold on
False Box Sentence
Hey! lets all kill each other
lets burn down our homes
Yeah! lets all burn each other
relax, just put it on the card
we're all expendable here
didn't you check your myspace?
Hey! lets all fuck each other
film and sell each other
lick and suck each other
then, lets all stab each other
put your feet up! go on, have some more snacks you're going to live forever
look, no hands ma! (top of the world ma!)
damned if you do damned if you don't
(burn it all)
power and hunger and murder and cancer
raping the children for future enhancer
t.v. media and internet it's got you
we're feeding the monster that kills us all slowly
suicide, genocide, nuclear holy war
Final Denial
…and in this final moment
we all share the stage
begging and thankful for our every breath
shameful for our every waste
do not let me deny
I have fucking tried
in these days between
to be ready for mine
and in this final moment
we all bow to nature
and curse ourselves for our preoccupation's
and brace ourselves for what ever transcendence
it all comes down to this final moment
it all comes down to our final moment
Because I Will be Dying…
kiss me my love
hold me as I go
I will feel your hands like wind against my face as I go first into the unknown
kiss me now babe
hold me as I go
I will feel your lips like wind against my face mi amore I don't want to die alone
so put me in my lovers arms as helpless as a child cherishing my last kisses as my eyes fill with light
(and as well go through these changes one by one and all as one, I will go with a smile and stand and be true because I will be dying with you)
because I will be dying with you
but no, we're all alone
go in and come out alone isn't that right? we're not alive we're dying
fall in love but bullshit we're all alone
go in and come out alone
we die alone
I'll kiss you my love iIll be there as you come you will feel my kiss like wind against your face
I swear you won't die alone
Insider
Hi! High!
and if I could speak for somebody else
and if I could believe in something else some one else some how some way something else some where else
what do you want to hear that I hate, that I fear that I believe, that I deny that I am truth, that I lie that I have lived, that I have died that I win, that I lose that I try, that I hide from you?
and if you could speak for somebody else
and if you could believe in something else
I could not lie or could I?
please take this peace this piece of me
what do you want to hear that I have loved, that I have lost that I betray, that I have fought that I don't care, that I cry over you?
its up to you to decide its up to you the deny this peaceful meaning this peace from me
this piece of me
Grow
plants know they have nowhere to go except up plants know they have nowhere to go so they accept up
reach
however you, you build a tree and watch it grow you plant a seed and watch it grow
I hope it grows to your taste
so you take your little spark and start a fire of your own
so you take your little root and plant a garden of your own
I hope it grows to your taste
not the opposite of but the absence of
love it hate it, you don't have to stay
love it hate it, its your choice to make
love it hate it, its your life to take
darkness light, death life, love and hate, pleasure pain
not the opposite of but the absence of
grow
Parkus and Travelin’ Jack
Travelin’ Jack ol' Travelin’ Jack
got a far long way to go
longer way to come back
long long way for that boy to go
longer way to come back
Wolf! right here and now
he’s lost in the territories
he's flipping through territories
Jason!
He said he come from California don't know he gotta go right back
He said he come all that way poor ol' Travelin’ Jack gotta go right back
listen, talisman be given to your hand
not too big not too small
she look just like crystal ball
you be goin to California to bring her back now heres your burden heres your cross drop her jack and all be lost
don't forget the face of your father
I do not aim with my hand I aim with my eye I do not shoot with my hand I shoot with my mind
I do not kill with my gun I kill with my heart
Wolf! right here and now
protect the heard
God pounds his nails
The Podium
why else would I stand here unless I had faith in you
so I play my violin for you
time to say another story to spin for you
if you're here then you will hear
if you're not then i'll still try
and if I have to keep spelling this out for you please tell me why am I here
and if i have to keep spelling his out for you please tell me why are you here
this is so much more than a simple hobby so please tell me why are you here
what else am I supposed to do?
up here exposing myself to you
dancing and singing up here for you
crying and lying up here for you
screaming and dreaming up here for you
exposing myself for you
fucking jacking off for you
this era is dying in front of you
this art is dying in front of you
upon this podium for you
this art is dying upon this podium
up here for you
crying my last poem upon this podium
this art is dying just for you
why else would I stand here unless I had faith in you
unless i had hope in you
Verse to Verse
we're using up this planet
picture a cell building viral diseases to protect itself
size is infinite nothing as it seems
soon all could be over
life continues to eat
we can watch it all go just like my apocalyptic dreams
we can watch it coming
and feel a great sense of peace
I've been past Jupiter I’ve been past the last cold rock I've stood on the edge laughing only to find myself
bombs have already been built
gods have already been killed
what if all the bombs get dropped
what if your heart just stops
what if the sun burns out
what if gravity just stops
what if this song just stopped
la la le lo
abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwx why ?
whatever I believe comes down to one question beneath galaxies drowning in infinity
coincidence or miracle?